Music is Life. Life is Music.

Let's play ours out loud!  Here's to 2018, e'rbody.

Music is therapy.  It's a mood.  It's a memory.  It sets the tone.  It can help me understand my feelings; It can help me express my feelings.  It can rev me up or help me purge sadness.  It can push me to work out better, stronger, faster, harder (get it?  Wink wink.  Kanye lyric!).  It can help me find my zen.  I don't know what I'd do without it.

One of my favorites is Mary J Blige.  The lyrics she writes are almost like a kaleidoscope.  Depending on what's going on in my life, I zero in on words I didn't hear before or the song takes on a whole new meaning.  It's not like that for every song or artist.  A lot of music I take at face value.  Gretchen Wilson is another one I love.  But there's only one way to interpret Redneck Woman, amirite?  Just Fine by MJB is one of my favorites and this morning I was in awe of how much I really do love it.  How much the words resonate for me and in a much different way than I interpreted it before.  Absolutely amazing.  Mary.  I.  Love.  You.  I love how the tone of her voice has a "cry" to it.  It's as if she's desperate for you to feel her words.  The reverb is strong and it hits me right in the soul every time. 

​I felt anxiety over the weekend that my husband hasn't turned in his affidavit for the amicable divorce.  He keeps saying it takes a year to divorce.  We have no kids, no debt and we are in agreement we go the amicable route, clean and fast.  I am calling poppycock on a year long process. Anyway, I was feeling antsy and irritable he's dragging his feet.  I hope he turns in his affidavit in the coming week.  I turned mine in 3 weeks ago!  So with anxiety comes a lot of agitation towards him.  I know he's taking his time because he lost "control" over me and this is his way of asserting some control.  Listening to Just Fine on repeat this morning helped me center myself and focus on my love of life and what this new chapter will bring.  Let the agitation go because what will be will be.  Besides, he can't dodge the long arm of the law forever.  No need for me to feel anxious or angry.  Mary reminded me this morning it's about having my head on straight and my vibe on right. 
"Ain't worried bout you and whatcha gon' do, Ima lady and must stay classy".   

My love of music doesn't stop there and there's so many other artists out there I can't get enough of.  I certainly can't mention them all in one post, but I will mention one more here. Gwen Stefani is another artist that hits my heart.  Even before what I'm going through now, but even more so now.  Like she says on her Truth album and what I feel in my heart about 2018...
"and now I'm me without you and things about to get real good!"